saan?

sa pagsapit ng umaga
ang kamalayan ay napupunta sa talinghaga
ang tanging isip sa gunita
saan na naman ako dadalhin ng aking mga paa?

sa paghahanap sa pag-asa
sa araw araw na pagkabalisa
sa paulit-ulit na mga salita
saan na naman ako dadalhin ng aking mga paa?

magugulong tanong na walang kasagutan
mga bagay na hanggang ngayo'y may pagtataka pa
sa mga bagay na iniingatan
saan na naman ako dadalhin ng aking mga paa?

hinahanap sa langit ang liwanag
sa lahat ng mga bugtong na di mabigkas
hawiin ang ulap, tanggalin ang kaba
saan na naman ako dadalhin ng aking mga paa?

saw this one in my old blog and i thought i'd repost it since.. well since.. okay i can't really think of a good reason why, 'cept for the fact that i am tacky and i wanna put all my "significant" entries here.

still....
the clouds on my mind have yet to bid goodbye
the crimson wave of anger that overcame me hangs over my head
frustration dwells inside my wounded heart
tears threaten to fall, i push them back
silence is my only escape, for all has been said
words that come out fall on deaf ears anyway
i see her haunting eyes in my dreams
probing, innocent and sad
what do i do? what do i say?
would she care if i shouted "i want to stay."
after all that's been done, after all that's been said
my aching chest screams i love her still..

in the uncomfortable solitude of these four corners i hide
wrapped in my desperate thoughts i reach out
suddenly the wings of my mind take me soaring
far above and beyond what my eyes deny

through the melancholy of the night sky
through the blackness of remorse
i see and feel the magnificent rays of a sunrise
amidst the constant state of confusion and trepidation
i see a spectrum of smiles, of bright lights
and contented sighs

faint lights betray the darkness, and my tired soul feels restless
i revel in the moment with reckless abandon and candor
enamored with the blunt promise of tomorrow i cry
and though my heart moves wih caution and dares not hope,
i try.

and for those of you who can't read the poem..
the echo of memories reverberate in the halls of my
barely lucid mind
faint traces of a feeling so fleeting, so confusing,
so disarming
like a curious moth to a flame i am drawn
to a mist of fragmented images that haunt my every
conscious moment
an apparition, so vivid yet so vague,
unsure as an overcast sky
questions remain unanswered, promises remain undone
seeds that were planted never it seems
to see the light of day
unsteadily i gather the magic that was almost there,
that never was
and lock them away in a place where dreams are
left to be forgotten
pausing only to reminisce of happier moments
days when the sun and the flowers
danced together in unison
nights when the stars and the moon offered
their solemn embrace

the beaten path lies before me
a phantom road less traversed
slowly i move, hesitant, questioning
with nary a hint of hope in sight
i wait with bated breath for what seems like eternity
and continue my unsteady journey..