"i was once somebody's STAR..."

i'm falling into the same pattern all over again.

a lot of things have happened since i last posted an entry here.. it's all kinda overwhelming that i don't know where to start. i don't even know if i want to retell it, lest i succumb to the hazards of overthinking once again.

suffice to say, i've decided to let it all go.

i am stolid. passive.

i am letting the weight of the things that came to pass wash over me.. let the hurt and confusion and bitterness bathe me. engulf me in it's totality like a cocoon does a caterpillar. i am letting nature run its course. i am hoping against hope that i come out my imprisonment a better individual, one who will soar above it all someday.

i'm not one to place myself in the mercy of fate. i firmly believe in taking action, of letting yourself forge the destiny you want. but i learned that there are some things you can't control.. some things you can't change no matter how hard you try, no matter how much blood and tears and sweat you spend doing it.

change is something nobody can avoid.