"And I'm torn in pieces
I'm lyin there waiting for
My heart is reeling
I'm blind and waiting for you"
-goo goo dolls, big machine

and so it ends.. not with a bang but with a whisper.

i had expected this, had played this scenario over and over in my head. somehow it hadn't helped. goodbyes are never easy.

my heart is still pounding.. threatening to burst out of my chest. it takes all of my will to calm it down. suddenly i find myself in familiar ground.

here i am again, bandaging the wounds of my tattered emotions.

i don't wanna feel anymore. i'm tired. so tired.